Saturday, November 3, 2012
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Got admitted again just yesterday evening as there was a bed available. Sadly. Wasn't keen to get admitted as well, so yeah, my mood isn't any much better, especially with the weighing. It was like DARNSHIT. ): Meals... Been kinda screwed on my own eating outside so it doesn't get much easier here either. Cried as well, after I saw the dr in the morning today. Gah. I've no idea how am i going to pass the days in here. Its so quiet and boring, there's nothing much to do. Or more like, I've no mood to do anything. ): Hopefully all be well xxx
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Hi. I'm Lizzie. I suffer from the same thing. I really hope that you're ok, and that someday, we'll both have such missions in life that will totally overcome what seems so strong and overwhelming in the moment. It's not right that something so evil can be so all-consuming. Some days, I think I can't take it any more. It's hard, because I know in my mind what's right, but my body is so used to the other way, to being a certain way. *sigh* I don't regret it, because I've learned a lot about health, but I do feel very alone.
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Lizzie P.
Hi. I'm Lizzie. I suffer from the same thing. I really hope that you're ok, and that someday, we'll both have such missions in life that will totally overcome what seems so strong and overwhelming in the moment. It's not right that something so evil can be so all-consuming. Some days, I think I can't take it any more. It's hard, because I know in my mind what's right, but my body is so used to the other way, to being a certain way. *sigh* I don't regret it, because I've learned a lot about health, but I do feel very alone.
ReplyDeletelove,
Lizzie P.
Hello Weilin! I really enjoy being with you and talking to you each night. You should know who I am. DO continue to stay strong and we the person whom you want to be. Strong and powerful. The mighty warrior who has a heart which is filled with love and compassion. I feel so honoured to have come to know you throughout my recovery journey :)
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hey elizabeth, i feel you. Its hard to get over it, but always remember that you're worth so much more than what that devil is telling you. Yeah, i guess we all know what's right and what's wrong but its hard to do the right thing, cause all the guilt sinks in after. But part of recovery is to sit with the awful feeling, with the guilt etc. Feelings do not mean it is true k. And I think maybe you should find someone whom you can share your problems about so you won't feel so lonely. You're not alone :)
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