i am so hungry now! wokeup to grab some tiger biscuits! god, it was heavens! YUMMM YUMM YUMMMMM!
Can't wait for 6.30+am or so to get 2 bakery buns! last night, i felt really stupid. its as if Ed was controlling my life AGAIN. After dinner, i was "forced" by Ed to exercise and yeah i gave in and did 40Pushups. k, the thing is i ain't even supposed to do 1! why on earth did i do 40?! Esp when i was dgagamn tired after 10 but continued. gag. Had a talk with mom and dad, and they are reallyyy supportive yay <3 i got mom to force me to eat when i dont wanna eat and stuff, really hope not to slip back again and i think my stomach has kinda shrunk. :x neeed to get it back on track again! so digestion takes place faster LOL. constipation still here, so, MORE CARBS!
Will be having main meals outside i suppose, other than breakfast!
Maybe this's what I'm gonna have?
Before Breakfast- 4 TIGER biscuits
Breakfast- 2 bakery buns (prolly 1 cream cheese and idk)
Snack- hopefully yoguru(love love that!)/slice of cake/cookies!
Lunch- main meal+fruit
Snack- have to skip it, since gonna have late lunch due to church!
Dinner- main meal
Supper- 5-6TIGER biscuits+milk
k, still hungry x.x gonna get them soon!
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ReplyDeleteWEILIN I AM SO PROUD OF YOU! Your meals might have been restrictive but I think mentally, YOU MATURED AND GREW SO MUCH STRONGER. Let's see:
1) You managed to keep to your meal plan! (kind of?)
2) You realised for yourself and you could see that ED was dragging you back down, and you could see how ED doesn't want you to shine.
3) You were able to talk to your parents logically like a 17 year old and not like a child.
4) YOU ARE RECREATING THE PROCESS OF RECOVERY. YOU ARE GETTING UP AFTER A FALL & THAT'S THE BEST PART<3
Ily ttm, hope to see more inspiring posts like that. Make this blog known! Help others see that eating is NOT WRONG.
haha yes. but i never am going to restrict anymore, i promise you! if not you can punish me, fair? hahaa. yes thanks so much for your help and support! lets all eat more tgt and show others that IT IS ABSOLUTELY FINE TO EAT TONS AND NOT GET FAT! ok?:) i need you to go through this with me! you're doing good too and ilyttmt! <3 best friend of mine hehehe best recovery buddy!
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