Full till puke!

Today morning didn't start off well, but hey! After breakfast all went well:) tho only had an alpen bar which is those low cals ones for breakfast, but snacked a lot. Really truckloads of them. Hahaha i don't know why suddenly i had the split second whereby i was thinking what i had been doing to myself. So since today Ed wasn't so strong as previous days, i decided to eat what i wanted. So... Lunch had home cooked korean rice cake! OMG it was spicy lah. Till my tummy was so hot. LOL. But it was nice tho. Had a slice of ice cream cake to cool the hotness hahaha. But i dont know why once i start i cant stop:( Maybe it was too depreived again from the past couple of days i guess. Snacked on stuffs like tsp, swiss roll, mochi, ice cream cake, banana cake, eggtarts, muesli, milk, juice etc. OMG a lot right? Dang. And i didn't had fruits today:( sadly. Will stock up the fridge with fruits again! (Y) I realised that when i didn't have my usual huge bowls of fruits, i end up having all the quick fit sugary stuffs. So yeah not good to have them so often. Fruits i love them! Especially chilled grapes and strawberries :) Tbh, i actually did feel guilty for eating and think there's a need to like restrict tomorrow and wednesday and thursday before appointment. And if i don't get admitted, i think i might actually continue restricting:( Sigh. Kind of been a habit already i suppose. But seeing my food diary, i wonder what will the doctor say. Anyway i had KFC for dinner! Haven't had them in a superrrr longggg time! Had cheese meltz set with one chicken drumstick and 3porteguese eggtarts~ First time trying them and i think the eggtarts are really good indeed:) Trying to get my mind off all the guilt by blogging hahaha and was also helping to sort out namecards. The namecards method didn't really help. Anyway! Tomorrow going to watch a movie if i'm not wrong:) Will be either watching magic to win or New Yesr's Eve with Mom :) Morning showtime i hope! Update again tomorrow:))